Chasing Pavements

Being Practical? Sitting down and thinking about it, how far do we get to go with it? The moment our brains strikes this question, the happy things around start getting screwed up. But still, it happens to be one of the necessary things in life.

Being 20 something, we all are in a rush to strive for a successful academics, a successful career, a successful relationship, and a some solid blocks of foundation that shall keep us going. But so many of us fall for temptations, deviate, and live a virtually happy life during this very time and deny the perspective of thinking too much like grown ups. Such people land up having virtual "best of both worlds" and living the dream. The consequence of this is always one: waking up to a truth that is unbearable to make peace with, the practical world.

Taking a look at the people, who strive to be practical, who kill every desire that motivates them to live in the dream for just a bit, who strive and work hard through out, who spend their youth working hard, enjoy less, we realize that they do acquire the best of both worlds, but when they do, they are too old for living the dream.

Then how does it work? Being practical, or just giving up to your desire, and do exactly what your heart wants? Following a particular set of rules, or live in a denial to any boundaries? What has a brighter future?

Should I give up, or should I just keep chasing pavements, 
Even if it leads nowhere?

Toh Zinda ho tum....

Pighle neelam sa behta ye sama,
neeli neeli si khamoshiyan,
na kahin hai zameen na kahin aasmaan,
sarsaraati hui tehniyaan pattiyaan,
keh raheen hai bas ek tum ho yahan,
bas main hoon,
meri saansein hain aur meri dhadkanein,
aisi gehraiyaan, aisi tanhaiyaan,
aur main… sirf main.
Apne hone par mujhko yakeen aa gaya.

Ik baat honton tak hai jo aayi nahin
Bas ankhon say hai jhaankti
Tumse kabhi, mujhse kabhi
Kuch lafz hain woh maangti
Jinko pehanke honton tak aa jaaye woh
Aawaaz ki baahon mein baahein daalke ithlaye woh
Lekin jo yeh ik baat hai
Ahsas hi ahsas hai

Khushboo si hai jaise hawa mein tairti
Khushboo jo be-aawaaz hai
Jiska pata tumko bhi hai
Jiski khabar mujhko bhi hai
Duniya se bhi chupta nahin
Yeh jaane kaisa raaz hai

Jab jab dard ka baadal chaya
Jab ghum ka saya lehraya
Jab aansoo palkon tak aya
Jab yeh tanha dil ghabraya

Humne dil ko yeh samjhaya
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai
Duniya mein yunhi hota hai

Yeh jo gehre sannate hain
Waqt ne sabko hi baante hain
Thoda ghum hai sabka qissa
Thodi dhoop hai sabka hissa
Aankh teri bekaar hi nam hai
Har pal ek naya mausam hai
Kyun tu aise pal khota hai
Dil aakhir tu kyun rota hai

Dilon me tum apni betabiyan leke chal rahe ho,to zinda ho tum
Nazar me khwaabon ki bijliyan leke chal rahe ho,to zinda ho tum
Hwa ke jhokon ke jaise aazad rehno sekho
Tum ek dariya ke jaise lehron mein behna sekho
Hr ek lamhe se tum milo khole apni baahein
Hr ek pal ek nya sama dekhe nigahein
Jo apni ankhon mein hairanian leke chal rahe ho,to zinda ho tum
Dilon mein tum apni betabian leke chal rahe ho,to zinda ho tum....

I hope I get it right one day.

Relationships: A huge pile of joy comes to you one fine day. You are on cloud nine. And day by day, before you realise, something goes missing. You try hunting the missing bit down, and you lose it totally. After a few more days, you come up with that common conclusion, may be the right person is on his way. And it continues....


A few tears, a few smiles, a few memories, and a few friendships. All of these together define unique relationships. Friends come, a few last, and a few don't. The ones that last, are there cause you have ignored the bits you have hated about them. The ones who go away, probably could not ignore the things they hated about you. 


I know people, who just could not make peace with the above definition. They lost someone, and could never find a ground for their feet again. I know friends who have defined relationship as: a happiness that stays and stays forever. I fail to understand how it works for them. 


I have found solutions to the complicated designing problems in the systems I work with, however have always failed to find a solution for the state where relationship starts being called "the complicated one". I fail to realise, why it eventually just reaches this phase for all of us. 

Don't we all start off with that perfect companion? Don't we start hanging out with those perfect friends. Where do we lose these perfect people eventually. Only after a while we realise how things just stop working out. Some of us shout, blame others and get over with it. But I cannot. Putting myself in everyone's shoes, I have always found every one justified. Then why does every time some one has to be called the "bad one", and has to be left behind? Was that "bad one", not once the reason of some beautiful smiles? Why is it that someone eventually becomes the "wrong person to be with". Was that same person not a reason for our happiness some time ago, and seemed the most perfect person on this earth?


May be all this just defines that nothing in our life is permanent. But then how it is totally a disaster to realise one fine day, that one person was not right! You have to move on. You have to find that right friend to hang out with, that one right person to fall in love with, that one right person to smile with, that one right person to spend life with. 


However, with the way people change from right to wrong, with the way my attitude changes from right to wrong, with the speed with which time changes from right to wrong, I can just hope, that I get it right one fine day!

Holding on and Letting go

A lesson I have learned as time has passed - Let go things when you have had enough of them. Also, I have learnt to - Hold on, while you struggle to to keep up, it will eventually happen. Only that I never really realised when I reached the situation's "letting go" part, and when did I stop holding on?

Putting it in simple words, we all struggle, we try our level best to strive and to achieve - Holding on.
Its been a rubbish few days, everything seems just hazy - Let go? May be not, may be just hold on.

There have been times and situations when we all have looked back and told ourselves, "Wish we could have waited, kept our calm and patience, things could have shaped up so different!". And there have been times when we all have looked back at times an told ourselves, "Only if I had let it go, and moved on with a different perspective, things would have been better!".
Only if some one could be there by our sides to tell us, "Kid, its enough. No need to hold on. Let it go". No regrets, and no hopes. Just a certain verdict. The much needed assertive in our uncertain lives.

(To all those singles working hard in the big cities, to build a better future for their families, who are on their laptops, running away from the loneliness, looking away from huge piles of books/lectures/projects to take a break, and have made an escape to the virtual socializing)

Chal diyey...

F.R.I.E.N.D.S

http://xkcd.com/866/

Some things are beautiful:

 A sweet good bye along with the hot steaming lunch box from some one every morning, 

A cup of ginger tea by your bed side when you are cold, 

A person who would listen to you even if the things you say are least concerned with him, 

A morning when sun shines brightly, and you can smell the wet soil, 

A night when you could cuddle up on your sofa and fall asleep with the novel still in your hand, 

A sweat shirt that is old, but still is an important part of your cupboard, 

A pair of denims that you have had from day 1 since you moved out, 

A group of friends munching on the cheapest bag of samosas in the town, 

A conversation that has no outcomes and is just a waste of time, but still you are part of it, cause your best buddies initiated it, 

A bicycle, that is of no use any more, but has been more than a porche to you in teenage days, 

An old radio, that played 24*7 in your room while you pondered over your mathematics problem, 

A diary, that has all those poems, all those articles you once wrote, probably trying to bring out the writer in you (as your teacher said)!

A slam book, which you hid from your parents with the best of efforts. (I still wonder how mums find everything? they are pretty good at it!!)

A friend who would listen to you, without hanging up on you.

A mate who thinks you are the best person to talk to when he is upset.

A neighbour who would do her home work earlier to spare out at least half an hour to have a walk around, 

A brother who would pop in every night before the exam, because he trusts you that you know what questions are going to appear the next day, 

A brother who thinks getting your notes photocopied might help him out study a bit better, 

A tuition buddy, without whom tuition classes are not worth it, 

A friend with whom you could exchange your clothes......

because some things are just too beautiful! 

Lets live in the moment right now, because may be this one becomes just another one in the list above! :)